During confession one time, a priest told me the quickest way to get out of my sin (truth bomb: I'm insecure and tend to be jealous) was to start a gratitude journal. Now this wasn't a foreign concept for me, I've heard this said many times and just chucked it to being to "new agey" for me, after all "feelings" was in the same realm as Oprah (or so I've been led to believe). This time it hit me hard and I decided to give it a try, but I didn't do it to the full extent of journaling. I would wake up or go to bed with a list of thankful thoughts to send to the Lord, all while battling feelings of inferiority. "The pen is mightier than the sword" and "The faintest ink is better than the most retentive memory" keep coming to mind. Actually WRITING words of thankfulness and gratitude might actually be the answer (duh!) and what is the most modern way of putting pen to paper.....blogging. And so here I am ready to embark on an adventure of bearing my soul to y'all...don't worry I'll only start with Thursdays so you can just skip that day of cyber stalking.
For today, I am thankful, dear Lord, for the life that you have given me through to mere mortals who did not know what they were doing :) I am thankful that You have a purpose for this broken life, that Your purpose for my life is bigger than the scars and broken pieces of my being. I am thankful that You show me Your Will every day in the loud screams of a baby, in the gentle hum of the dishwasher, in the silence of my closet as I hid from those beloved beast You gave me. I am thankful that I was raised in the environment that I was because without it I wouldn't be who I am today, the exact person You needed me to be. I am thankful that You have blessed me with 5 children and 2 in Heaven, who mirror the best and worse of this your humble servant, they are here to help in the purpose that You created me for, without them I would only be half the soldier You needed. I am thankful for my husband, the man that I least expected to become my partner, but who You knew would be the best person to drive this dilapidated ship. I am thankful for the people You have entrusted into my companionship, I will do my best to elevate them to the soldiers that You need them to be, You have put them here for a reason and I am willing to be the reason they turn to You. THANK YOU for being my Father, always having my back, always being a role model, sounding board, listener and giver. You are my GREAT "I AM"! Now, back to the work You have entrusted me to do :)
Go Get them Ladies!
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